Drowning, Sick, and Alone

Why can’t i not just end it all?
Why couldnt i just drown?
Im sick of life
im sick of the people who surround it.
This place just makes me sick
i just want to bang my head
on concert so i can bleed.
I dont need cutting
when i have a brick wall
down in my basement.
I really dont want friends
they are in the way.
I dont even want family
i really dont want anything.
I rather be alone
then to be with people
who will end up leaving me.
Who cares about their feelings
they dont know what i am going through
They will never understand.
I’m not going to ask for help.
I will either drown
or try to overdose on pills.
Maybe both if it works.
I am nothing but scum.
SCUM!…