I don’t even know where to start. I am a worthless person. My husband has been asking me to change for 5 years. as long as we’ve been married. He has schizo-effective disorder and needs a lot of support. I don’t know how to help him, and usually I just make things worse. I have a 3 year old little girl who is not even potty trained because I waited too long and know she is too stubborn. I am angry all the time. I don’t sleep. Had yet another fight with my husband tonight. He and my daughter would be so much better off without me. I wish I had the guts to kill myself, but I can’t even do that. All I wanted in life was to be a wife and mother, and I can’t d it. I can’t find work, I make my mentally ill husband take care of me, the house and the kids. I just don’t know what to do. I feel like he doesn’t love me. He basically told me he wants to leave. I am supposed to be the strong one. I can’t do it anymore. I don’t want him to go. I want to disappear. I am a worthless human being. I can’t do anything right. My husband is much better at taking care of her. He is better at disciplining, because he doesn’t get as angry. She really knows how to get me angry and I am afraid I am going to hurt her, so I let her walk all over me instead of disciplining. I can’t afford to go to the dr and I don’t have any meds. I don’t know what to do.
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You’re gonna continue to live in hell like this until you finally have the guts to kill yourself.
Change one step at a time.
Tell your husband now is the time, sit down and write a plan.
Cast your burdens on Him because He cares for you 🙂 …call out to Jesus love, if you need someone to talk to my email is altera.ad@gmail.com