Do you ever have a feeling that your just wasting your time. That everything around you is suddenly suffercating you with a pillow. So much caring is like a bad thing is you think about it. So many people crowding you till you have no space life. I’m not afraid although i always face fear every day. I just want to infleck harm against myself. Smash mine head against a wall or a window. Using glass to jagger up mine neck. Gun shot to the chest or head even. Maybe just maybe i could even do what i was going to do… drown myself. Just to feel the water fill up mine lungs is particually all i really need to end mine cursed it life. Just think… one day i could do one of these maybe even sooner. But for now i will lock up mine feelins and crying in mine room in silence.
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“…Depression is not sobbing and crying and giving vent, it is plain and simple reduction of feeling…People who keep stiff upper lips find that it’s damn hard to smile.”
Sorry about the random quote, but yeah I choke myself to feel the loss of blood and all that great stuff. Sobbing in your room helps? Well it used to help me, but now I just talk to myself, talk to Rogue Shadow. Ever heard of a conscience, I walkways thought that that was only in cartoons haha, anyways try creating an alter ego that is completely positive and talk to it if you /really don’t have anyone to talk/ to… My normal self is an annoying whiner that needs to shut up… Anyways yeah same here mostly… :/