I lost a friend..

It’s been a long seven months not being able to see his face.. what could have gone wrong .. I Received a call from my best friend who had been his girlfriend for over a year. “He’s missing ” as she was crying , i didn’t know what to say all that came to me was my mind thinking maybe he had ran off somewhere. Her response ” His bag ,phone and everything else were found at the bridge” I was in utter shock.. she said goodbye. That night i was on my way to my grandparents to go on a camp retreat the next day . It had left me speechless… i wasn’t gonna cry because i had hope he was still there somewhere in the cold dark city. I had received another call from her about a half and hour later , “He’s dead” the police had said he jumped off the bridge into the river and someone had seen him do it” i was with my cousins who live at my grandparents i burst into tears and all i could do was give my cousin a hug and tell my Best-friend id call her tomorrow . That weekend of the camp retreat , i was in a cabin with girls i’ve been going to camp with for years we were all so close, every night turned into an emotional battle it couldn’t be true he wasn’t gone and he is still out there ….. They had never found his body so it makes me wonder.. His friend had posted a conversation between the 2 of them and He had mentioned he wanted to start new.I didn’t have a phone that whole weekend but one of my friends did so i checked facebook because i was in denial .. I can’t stop thinking about him and his words to me ” You just have to fight depression because you’ll break lose somewhere and be free ”  and those pictures he took from the bridge , i ended up trying to tell myself that maybe it was just a plot .. I cry almost every night , he never thought anyone was there for him but until it happened i wish he could realize the people that have  missed him . SO PLEASE THINK TWICE <3 you are much stronger ….