Recently my life has taken a turn for tge worst. I had a decent life living in savannah, ga. Then my mom got diagnosed with stage 3 colon cancer. Moved back home (Jasper, ga) to be with her. It’s tough. So then tine passes, mom has defficulties with chemo, all going down hill. Well I have to have a regular colonoscopy as a check up. Time goes by. Yesterday I found out that my boyfriend of 4 years cheated on me. I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, I have migraines from not eating. I feel like it’s my time to go. I wish God would take me away. I’ve already given all of my personal information to my best friend. The ex bf is getting drunk while I’m sitting here contemplating suicide. I need help. I need someone. Being single doesn’t bother me. Being alone bothers me.
3 comments
I somewhat understand where your coming from. My grandmother raised me so shes sort of this mother figure and having someone you love be really sick sucks. And everyday I’m scared that her life may be ticking away, and I’m just not ready for it. I start thinking about it and i get so depressed and i feel alone and empty. I realized that its tough to see a loved one so sick and know that they may die. But you need to enjoy your loved ones while there here enjoy life while its still going. Its our thoughts that make us feel so alone and empty cuz we focus on the bad things. I know what its like to care about someone who starts caring about someone else. But it happened for a reason. I believe that you have it in you to be strong you just gotta apply yourself and support yourself. No matter what your never alone you always have yourself. I hope that my words may have helped you in some way and best wishes to you and your mother.
Katy, although this boyfriend of yours id alive in your life…spiritually he is dead. He is not sharing this difficult moment with you.
So use him while you need him and when the storm disapperas and you feel better dump him for someone better.
Get even.
When you dump him send him a not thanking him for his support while the world was falling apart for you.
If you are still with him just use him….when you are stronger just dump him.
http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2011/06/11/burzynski-the-movie.aspx
This is a movie about how an actual cure has been blocked by the FDA.
Maybe it’ll help your mom. Good luck.