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It doesn’t exist for me.

by dyingmoon
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I believe that love doesn’t exist for me. I’ve never been loved and never will be. Maybe I just don’t want to. I don’t know. Sometimes I wish I did fall in love, and was happy. But that’s a dream for me. I know no one will love me the way I want to be loved and cared for. I will never find a ”soulmate” because my doesn’t even exist. So I don’t want to exist anymore. It’s not worth it anymore. I’ve lived my miserable and horrible life for way too long. Maybe tonight’s the night I will be on my way to a better place. A place where I won’t exist.

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Umbra_Artist 6/22/2011 - 8:35 pm

I’m sorry this is happening to you. But if I may ask, why is love and the potential “soulmate” so important that you would die for it?

dyingmoon 6/22/2011 - 8:36 pm

It’s not just that. There are a lot of things, this is just one of them.

Umbra_Artist 6/22/2011 - 8:44 pm

Sorry dyingmoon. I never meant that this was your only reason for suicide. I was just curious because I see others who write about how not receiving love would kill them. I sincerely apologize for any misunderstanding. Sorry.

dyingmoon 6/22/2011 - 8:49 pm

It’s alright. No big deal.

error 6/22/2011 - 10:07 pm

I had a soul mate once upon a time….i screwed it up! it’s been almost 6yrs & i think of him everyday….i don’t know whats worse having it & losing it or never having it at all..

dad 6/22/2011 - 10:09 pm

17 years; don’t know if she was my soulmate, but I often wonder.

deadotter 6/22/2011 - 10:11 pm

I use to think that way about love and soulmates.

It’s even worse for me because I thought I found my soulmate and was married to my soulmate and it turns out I was wrong.

I think society and movies give us these false expectations about love & relationships. It’s not all about romantic dinners, and such. All those things don’t matter. If someone really and truly loves you they’d love you even at your very worst.

I think being loved, is an essential thing when it comes to human nature. None of us are built for being alone.

But trust me you’re better off alone than go through the heartbreak of betrayal and drama I went through.

error 6/22/2011 - 10:17 pm

you don’t wonder if someone was your soul mate you know it without a doubt!

FrozenFrog 6/23/2011 - 6:14 am

How old are you?

dyingmoon 6/23/2011 - 7:53 am

I’m 16.

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