Take me!!!!

I think I’m finally letting go!I’m sick of everyone & everything I need friend a true friend a best friend I found 1 I looked deeper within myself within you and everything you do actions&words I fear you i fear me I fear the rope hanging from that tree the tree of life the tree of death I am numb so I cut you are happy so you dance I bleed so I know I’m real you smile cause you have love I want to be programed to be happy loved excited I want your system I want your smile If i get up and fly I’ll finish this gun