2 of my friends said they saw my scars on my arm. that must have freaked them out (they’re both older than me). my scars are pretty bad. but you know what they said? they still love me. they said they wanted to cry when they saw my scars. they said they’re here for me.
I have no clue what to think. what to say. they are awesome people. i still wanna die. how do i tell them that? they care about me so much and we all met just a few weeks ago…
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That is soo sweet of them. You’re really lucky to have people like that in your life. And it’s gona be very hard to tell them I’m guessing. Wish you luck.
Be thankful you have friends like that. A lot of people would have made fun and laughed but they didn’t. At least people know how you feel now. E-mail me if you need to talk.
That is such a blessing. Of course most people would ask…”if you have these awesome friends, why do you still want to die?” It’s the same thing with me. I don’t have many friends. Right now I have one truly good friend who is like family to me, and I love very much, and my parents. I come from a very small family and don’t have any siblings. But like all families out there, it’s not perfect, far from it.
I am miserable with my situation despite the fact that I have people who will definitely be devastated if/when I decide to commit to taking my own life.
I guess the only thing I can say if you really plan to die, spend as much time as you can with them before any of that….and maybe who knows, they’d change your mind.
Yea I know a couple people who know about my scars. They say they are here for me but I don’t need them to tell me that.
@deadotter, they might save my life, but after this guy ripped out my heart(I have other posts, you don’t have to read them), this life isn’t worth living. I know there are a LOT of people I would leave behind, brokenhearted with months of grieving and crying, but I don’t want to live if they don’t care while I’m alive. I can’t hang out with them cause I’m in a foreign country(I’m from the U.S), I don’t have boyfriend for the same reason. he was everything to me, I can’t live without him, he didn’t realize how happy he made me. now I just sit around, waiting to find out when i wanna kill myself, if that ever happens.
@Broken, I know we’ve never met in real life and we don’t know each other all that well. but I do really care about you, and any time you wanna talk or vent, you know my email. 🙂
Sorry I am new so I haven’t followed posts by others, so I only can respond to the recent ones, I know a lot of people have been here longer so they have an entire history written on here.
I get your point there, I truly do. I have parents who love me, but I think at this point they don’t LOVE me, that love is mainly out of obligation, not pure love.
They love just because I am their flesh and blood, and they feel obligated to take care of me, besides that they don’t really respect me or even like me anymore and I don’t blame them.
I had someone too who was my whole world. I was even married. Then one day they decided to just leave. That shattered me and I literally died on the inside. Since then nothing’s been the same. For a while I was pretty vengeful, bitter and angry. I wanted to kill him. A lot’s happened since then….my reasons for wanting to take my own life is a lot recent than that, but what happened is a huge factor that pushed me towards suicide, so yeah I can somewhat relate.
Although personally for me, I am killing myself because of him, I am over him now….at least I’d like to believe I am. It’s more me feeling that I am a waste of space now and I am tired of waiting around for nothing.
well, my parents love me, I know deep down they truly do, but they don’t really show it. and my sister hates me.
the guy I loved doesn’t want me anymore. its so hurtful. he basically promised we would be together, then one day he just said we’re a mistake. that we should just be friends. now I hate myself, and I can’t stop cutting. but I deserve this. he said I really hurt him too. and I made him really mad. so, yeah. this pain is good for me.
hey, @ Jamie-S11, what’s your email? I’d really like to talk