I can’t take this shit anymore! I just can’t take it. Life is so fucking stupid, including the people in it. Well mine that is. My moms boyfriend can rot in hell and I’ll laugh at his screams. He deserves it. Heh…maybe I do too. Who knows? Who cares? I have so many questions and no one will answer them. No one will even bother to listen to me. There’s a reason I’ve kept to myself for so long. Because no one would give a fuck about what I needed to say. So, hey, it’s what they get. I won’t talk. They don’t need me too, do they? I don’t think so. I know what I can do now and there isn’t a person out there who can stop me. Put me in a mental hospital, shoot me up on drugs, I don’t care. When I get out, I’ll do it. Put me in there forever and I’ll find away. I’ll be normal there and they’ll put you in there for thinking I’M crazy. I’m perfectly fine. I’m probably the most normal person here. But no…you won’t listen will you? No one will. So now, I’ll take the anger out on me and you’ll see. You’ll regret meeting me. You’ll regret hurting me. And you’ll never be able to do a thing about it.
21 comments
21 comments
what exactly are you going to do? im confused.
Haha, sorry for the confusion. Suicide. The reason we’re all here, right?
Please talk to someone. Maybe some people don’t realize you wanted to talk or you just haven’t found the right people to talk to.
I think they know. They’re just fucking with my mind now.
I’m sorry if they are, but you can meet new and caring people. They will listen and want to help you.
yea,,,, i think i know somewhat what you mean,,, it’s like,,, you’re surrounded by… primitiveness,,, you’re in hell but no1 seems to give a damn right? People are god damn primitive…. so it’s up to you to step up, and let your voice heard. u kno what i mean?
Haha, I get it X-Boy Thanks.
X boy youve got savvy. Primitve sums it up perfectly. But given the chance I reckon we’d all be primitive. By that I mean there is real fulfillment in signing ones soul away to the collective to exchange the immortal soul for one of earth and corruption. We’ve been conditioned in such a way that the minds of the masses are in perfect synchrony. Except for us somehow weve fallen out of step and we feel disjointed somehow.
Perhaps suicide is built into western society as a mechanism for pruning off those individuals whose minds are in dissonance with the herd. Notice how we are no longer producing any great minds? Our greatest scientific breakthroughs are in the realms of the military and in cybernetics with the medical and pharmaceutical industries having ground to a halt.
Men such as JFK MLK Gahndi and even Krishnamurti are a dying breed and we have only David Icke to step up and be initiated into the fold. Many here if allowed to progress unhindered would be uncompromising free thinkers, but this very capacity to set ourselves against the grain means that we are seperated from the hive mind and thus feel vulnerable prone exposed and helpless.
Hope that made sense – I am suffering from exhaustion
I understand, Will.
I’ll listen to you!!
I’m glad…
Sensing some sarcasm there.. :’)
No xD I meant it. I didn’t know what else to say sorry x3
Haha, that’s okay.
Good. Haha, that was sarcasm. Although I’m definally not good at it…
Hahaha, sarcasm is actually impossible to detect over the internet. It really depends on how well you know the person.
I know, because you don’t see their face or hear their voice. Mhm…
Yep, they could secretly be being mean and you would never know.. I’m going to end up making myself paranoid. Hahaha
well you are one hell of a freak
i am sorry about last remarks.. i was really pissed off. you are a gift of God on this earth.. the worst thing i ever did was when i was a kid.. I lit a matchstick and burned an ant alive just to feel happy.. now I raise my foot if I see an ant passing under it.. i care for life now because i want to live no matter how many problems i am facing, i still want to live. Think about doing something good for the people you love the most and you will find a reason to survive..
I am a freak, it’s fine.