who i am

well works both ways. it’s not a good lifestyle, i was that guy before, just seeing differnt girls, but i grew out of it, i guess part of me wishes i still felt the same as i did back then, no care with that part of my life.

i know what you man, ive been more reclusive now, not being around people. i know i couldnt stand it. where i could end up meeting someone new and it happening all over again

yeah the days ive been out i still was pulling away from everyone, which is so not me, i can make a friend in a second…to anyone, i alwayshave been like that, now, im just not me. where you going friday?

where abouts you from? that sounds like a walk off at one point and walk around alone sort of night for me. thats just how i know id deal with it. might not be the best, you should try and enjoy it with who you are going with.

uk, england. yeah, ive made excuses most time people want to go out or see me. but my friend, well an ex, but from when i was 17, so good 8 years ago, wants me to see her to sort some stuff out for her, and i feel bad turning her down, so i guess i cant really, and will just have to see her. not good when you always look out for others and put yourself second, dont end up like me, always feeling obligated.

im 25 in july, so yeah pretty much. you know 17 was the best year of my life, lol, 17/18. id go back there any day. i could relive it over and over and not get bord. it’s strange hearing how people that age hate those years, obviously we are all different, but i wonder how id feel now if they were not good years for me.