I’m a mess ,
due to my alcohol use 25years worth ,my wife and two kids have leafed me 12 months now.
23y of marriage2 wonderful Kidd’s now don’t even want to see me.
its been 12 months i have had a drink .AA helped me and the thoughts of reuniting as a family aegean keep ed me from the drink.
As i confess that I’m a alcoholic. and all that comes with alcoholism. even now I’min sobriety, thay wont have me back.
the house will be sold soon all that i put in to it sweat, blood,and tears gone, me to be tossed out of the house i once had a family in.
my wife sead i am just tricking her and the Kidd’s in saying that i was a  alcoholic. even she knows how much and how it affected me.
is ts not about the house nor money,its the lose of love hope and no Mercy. I truly want to die,now , i don’t want to go on.
trying hose in car from exhaust to night with some pills .
i give it my best shot baby . but i truly see the pain i have put you all through now to end the nightmare .
good by my loves . i love you all. this is why    i love you Sandi, Jake ,Georgia
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Hey…I know exactly how you feel. I know what it’s like to have everything you have loved leave you or reject you, and how alone you must feel right now. But I will say also, wait a little bit longer. Don’t try anything tonight, and go for some help. Counseling has helped me immensely, and you know from your own experience with AA that a little support can help tremendously. Take care, your family doesn’t want you to die, they want to see you again, just give them a little bit of time to heal, and in the mean time you can work on healing too. 🙂 There is always hope and love, you just need to reach out and find it.
Be a new person. Change the way you are. You don’t have to die. You can start over even though you can’t be with your wife again. Your kids need you.