I’m so scary. I am living in fear every single day. I always scary to get out of bed or even out my room. Is this how im supposed to feel? This emotion distress calling out for help. Screaming to my body that it needs to lose more weight or binge once and awhile. I cant even feed myself right anymore. I have lost control of everything. I dont deserve to live much longer. Oh dont let your emotions take over you to fucking late now. I dont know what i can conqure much longer. I have lost my self respect for myself now. I have lost everything for myself. I dont deserve sympathy. I dont anyone. I dont deserve any right to be happy much more. All i need now… is the water filling my lungs as i sink in my tub.
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Hey I feel the same too, but I just let it keep battering me. I know how you feel. I cant cope these days either.
Fear is a Demon, ones they are entering your life, they take control over your doings, they make out you stay in your room, they want you to suffer. You are a pray and have turned on your back, giving in to all the fears they are feeding you with. You walk in the dark, that is why you feel fear. You dont see the future anymore, all the reasons to be feared are here. But you do not have to JUSTIFY this feeling. You do not have to feed these demons. NO one deserves to be happy unless they are able to make other people happy. I want you to take life in your hands again, I want you to cast your fear demons away, and shout them to the darkest corners of the world, I want you to ask all your fore fathers for help, pray to your family roots, and let them HELP you. Allow to SEE that you can coop with the pain and that there is a life waiting for you.
Just dont torture yourself more then you have to OK? Life is a ***** we all know, but you face it, and you tell it in her face you are not going to give in to those dark unpleasant feelings. Darkness might feel safe in some way, but your housing in the hands of the fear demons… Stand up and go your way. Drop the coat of victimizing yourself and refraining yourself from love. Many people will love you, let them come to you… they missed you!