Dumb-ass Girl

bartender pour another
to quiet all the thunder
that rages in this soul

i lived life undirected
then over-corrected
now i swerve out of control

time to make a change
can’t live another day
grieving for the ones stolen away

i stare into myself
but the mirror on the shelf
says i don’t deserve love anyway

dear god i’ve begged to you
but you’re fictional/untrue
so my prayers went unheard

i turned to lust and sex
and did so without regret
but my passion would not burn

i’ve had good intentions
but received only contention
self-pity is a sin

so i’ll turn back the clock
take the safety off this glock
let’s try this shit again

heavens just a place
so far out in outer space
that i’ll never see its gates

and hell cannot out-do
the fire i’ve lived thru
and the misery that i face

i have nothing left to lose
all resources have been used
and booze don’t numb my pain

i’d say one last fuck you to this world
but i’m just some dumb-ass girl
now let’s try this shit again