From the Inside

 

Welp, I’m really pissed off -.-

Today I was suppose to hang out with my ex and his best friend (his friend and I kinda got involved after my ex broke up with me about a year and a half ago.)

This ex? Was my first. The reason why I’m pissed off? Multiple reasons.

First; as I said I was suppose to hang with my ex and his friend we’ll name them Matt (the ex) and Kyle (the friend). Matt has promised since the summer that we broke up that we could still be friends and hang out. Since the year and a half, I’ve only seen him, once.

He always has some sort of excuse as to why he couldn’t make it, yet he told me not even two days ago that he still likes me. Then once he doesn’t show up he doesn’t answer his phone (calls or text).

Second reason I’m pissed is more of a minimal or “wtf” kinda mad thing. My friend is getting her ankle tattooed, in the same place I wanted to get it done and shes getting the same tattoo -.-

Third; I know this sounds dumb but I do tarot in my spare time along with other stuff along those lines, but for those who don’t know what tarot is its a way of predicting ones future or certain situation by cards.

And I was doing a spread that is under the love catergory called “Does he love you?” And seeing as I have a bf I wanted to see what it would say (my mom found out by Tarot that her first husband was cheating on her so I kinda believe even though many may not.)

And when I got to the third card in the first colomn (What does he love best about you?) It was the devil, which means that he’s addicted or something about me (in his eyes) makes him addicted.

That didn’t please me, so today I asked him if he was in fact addicted to me; He responded yes. Then I asked that if he liked the fact that I was addictive, he also replied yes.

So now I’m not sure if I’m being used or not. We have not done anything more than kissing yet so now I’m thinking about taking it even more slow.

So yeah theres a crappy day for me.

-Becca