Fuck it…
I’m sick of all of this…
I don’t need to deal with it…
I’m tired of crying everyday…
I’m tired of you being an asshole…
I’m tired of me being a complete *****….
I’m tired of it all, all that you fucking do daily….
I’m going to eventually die because of you anyway…
Just kill me already, kill me with your bare hands, you want to…
Though you’re not physically abusive, it’s close enough… Emotionally… Mentally…
I hate you.
When you shouted at me and told me to shut the fuck up, and slammed the fucking soda can on the bed side table in one swift movement and caused the entire thing to explode in less than a second…. It just made me think of how much you really do act like a drug addict. You’re so insecure about the word you can’t even stand hearing it or even thinking that you are. It’s a psychologically dependence on a drug or drugs… Which you have…
I hate me, I hate my life…
Just let me die in my sleep now… I took 1.5 of somas yesterday night… And I didn’t wake up for 11 hours… Maybe if I take 2 it’ll end up at 15… 3, 20… then 5 would be 25 considering my body would get used to them… Or maybe I’d end up in a come at that point…? Maybe…
Hopefully…
1 comment
You deserve better…don’t give up, go find what you deserve. I know it’s hard to leave, I have been in same situation. I finally get up and left. Life is still very hard but it gets better each day.