so about 1 hour ago i attempted suicide by taking over 20 diet pills at once…my head hurts, im dizzy, sweaty and i can’t see much. im so sleepy. I did this only because i think my boyfriend only lusts me. but i think my mind may be polluted. I dont know..i feel the way to get his attention is to hurt myself. Last time i cut my wrists so deep that now i have disgusting scars all over and can no longer wear short sleeved shirts. i did it to get his attention. i want his love. I chronically attempt suicide for him to call back, answer text back..actually say sweet caring things. i just feel he wants me only for sex but he says thats an insult. i love him..and sord of regret what i did…but i wish he would answer my calls, and texts and keep his word wen he says he’ll call back. hes actually dissapeared about 3 times for 4 days each without communication or explanation…but he says that its because he was in danger. i don’t know. I don’t want to die..i want to live. But i want love.
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im saying this as a guy, but i dont want you to totally go by what im saying, but it sounds like hes using you. like he has another or 2 others on the go, now i do only say this because i have done, almost similar things…not proud of it, really not, karma clearly exists. im paying for it, however, i did d the same sort of thing. if you want love, he will be there when ypu need him…without you asking for it. if you have to chase him and you are going out, its not how it is ment to be, so could be time to end it and move to someone who wants what you want
Thats true. He said that he loves me so much and that it hurts him to know that i think he lusts me. He said he was sick today which is why he hardly called or texted or answered. He just has a communication oproblem. I love him and hes calling me every second now to see if i am okay. i hope he loves me. Maybe i am overeacting. i have had a bad relatinship past and hes nothing like the other ex’s. hes reasonable, smart, and loving wen im with him. But wen we are away he gets aloof and hardly talks to me. he says he wants marry me but he wants me to get through my depression. Thank you so much for your reply. it means alot. i hope you have a loveley day 🙂
praying 🙂 ohh good song……to listen to…. You Are More by Tenth Avenue North