Laying here without her

She said she’d never leave. She said she’d love me forever. She said she’s be here no matter what. Well where are you? It’s been 6 months and I’ve been in hell all this time. I hurt day by day just at the thought of you. We we’re suppose to get married remember? Have a beautiful daughter remember? Or was it all just a pigment of my imagination? No it can’t be. Because I still have you messages in my inbox. Love is dead to me. I can’t even tell my own mother I love her because I choke at the start of the word because it was what I said to you ever single day.  I’m happy for you and him. I don’t care if I can’t have you. I only want you happy. When I die in my youth I wanna be able to watch you from above and smile every time you do. I love you. Now I lay here without you.