What is everything, im trying to be happy but why is it so hard. I have people who care for me, i have great friends who mean more than the world to me. But why would they love a loser like me, why do they care about me when they could just forget all together. Would i end up bringing them down?
Ive done nothing this summer. I just turned 17 and that made me reilize how much of a loser im becoming. I want a career, a family, a life. Wheres my social life at. Im too shy to go to gatherings and parties and stuff like that. I hate being the center of attention yet i love it at the same time. Yes i know theres people in a worse situation than me. But i just have to let this out. I want to be colorful yet its so dark and cold inside me.
I want to see a councelor, but ive been to shy to even ask. I havent cut for a while, but i want to again to get that woozy feeling when you see your own blood.
Am i selfish, i feel like i am. I want to be a good person, i want to be caring and loving and fun to be around. I dont want to be so damn depressed, i hate it.
THanks for reading,
Have a great day everyone 🙂
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Yo. ^- ^ We love and care about you bcuz we’re one and the same silly. =P
It doesn’t matter to me what you become I’ll always cherish you. <3