Spherical Fat Fellow

I.

Idle fingers wormed into my aunt’s harem, fondling

bashful bottles, creams, blisterpacks. Sharps of

insulin and statins-flova,pita, prava, for gluttony

 

and wrath, indulgence for indulgence. Substituted

lust, better than sex. Pride in finding God’s loop

-hole, pharmacornucopia, spilling candies white

 

to kill greed and fool envy. Greyscale for the mind.

 

My new family, surname Pam. Daddy Diaze Pam,

my sisters Clonny, Lorry, and old poxy grandpapa

Chlordiazepoxiede. Drip, drip, burn,

 

bitter backflow. Novice, diazepam has 100%

oral bioavailability. New Years night, weightless

and opiate warm, I fixed grim odds online

 

How I know I’m fucked

Cigarettes:	Bottom of my food pyramid
Family History:	Swiss cheese kidneys and crusty coronary arteries all around
Ethnicity:	our worst enemies
Diet/Exercise:	Newports, cows, rice(death)/Varsity Mathlete
Blood Pressure:	Paranoid extrapolation=200 mmHG by age 60
Weight/Height/BMI:	Super Heavyweight/Boring/Morbidly Obese

 

Conclusion: I’m gonna die

II.

I was on vacation, so I told my amygdala

to leave a message after the beep. General

embargo on flesh and saccharides. Thanks

for all the non-memories, soporiffides.

III.

#My mind

 

>>> def my_conscience ():

… “””Do nothing, but remember it all

…

…. No really, it doesn’t do anything

… “””

… pass

 

>>> self esteem= 0 #I used to think I was missing part of my brain

>>> self esteem==self worth #Then I realized it was superfluous

True

>>>self worth==self respect #I am superfluous

True

>>>self worth=x

>>>self hatred =y

>>>def the_pit (n): #No satisfaction, no solace, no sleep

…n=y-x

… while n>0

…return the_pit(n) #It swallows all the light

…exec maladaptive_behavior(d,s,v)

… if n<0 #No exit

…no chance

>>>def maladaptive_behavior(d,s,v) #All the gifts in the world…

>>>[d s v] == [drugs sex violence] #naive, burned them for dark triad

True

>>> d = [white brown] #Narcissism, Psychopathy, Machiavellianism

>>> s == v #Engulfed by oilslick seven-layered sea

True

>>>d > s #Please don’t go, mother, to purgatory

True

….for word in [d s v] #an L shaped green corridor, constant cold purgatory

…if n<0

… continue [white brown] #My cup is brimming, third cigarette almost out

… elif n>0

… who’re you kidding? #I’m sorry