I’ve decided to write my final notes tomorrow… I haven’t picked a new date for my suicide though. By the end of the summer for sure. Hopefully I’ll get though all that tomorrow. My happy ending is near.
for a long time i felt trapped. i couldnt really describe it to anyone. the best way to describe it is when i would write it down. i would write down that i felt like i was in a dark wooden crate. a dark, damp, uncomfortable wooden crate. i could see the light though, and my only option was to break the crate. to kick the walls down. to take my own life. to be free. set free into the light.
i am here today. and i still broke the crate.
i feel again. i am okay now.
you can be okay again.
i never thought i could be okay again.
imagine a life where you can say that you feel okay again.
i feel so connected to you because I’ve been there. i feel love for you. even though i dont know you. i love you. please, i am begging you. please dont do it. please.
Everyday I plan I get a little more courage. I feel a little better knowing it will all be over soon. It just takes time to grow that courage…
@ivebeenthere… I don’t want to get better. Because even if I do… Something will happen and I’ll be worse than I am now. If that’s even possible. I want it to end. Amd I know the only way for me to be happy is for it to end at my own hand.
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I wish you the best and I wish I had the courage. I have gotten as far as a note and a little more…I hope you find peace…
Feel free to write me…
for a long time i felt trapped. i couldnt really describe it to anyone. the best way to describe it is when i would write it down. i would write down that i felt like i was in a dark wooden crate. a dark, damp, uncomfortable wooden crate. i could see the light though, and my only option was to break the crate. to kick the walls down. to take my own life. to be free. set free into the light.
i am here today. and i still broke the crate.
i feel again. i am okay now.
you can be okay again.
i never thought i could be okay again.
imagine a life where you can say that you feel okay again.
i feel so connected to you because I’ve been there. i feel love for you. even though i dont know you. i love you. please, i am begging you. please dont do it. please.
Everyday I plan I get a little more courage. I feel a little better knowing it will all be over soon. It just takes time to grow that courage…
@ivebeenthere… I don’t want to get better. Because even if I do… Something will happen and I’ll be worse than I am now. If that’s even possible. I want it to end. Amd I know the only way for me to be happy is for it to end at my own hand.