i wish i could just go to sleep and never wake up. i hate failing when trying to commit suicide. tried it with a belt just now but for some reason I wasn’t even suffocating, it just felt like a massive headache and i was breathing regularly. maybe when i get a driver’s license i can buy some sleeping pills or something, i don’t know. i don’t want tonight to end and i don’t want to face tomorrow. school’s such a shitty place.