Well yesterday was an horrible day. It was the day i found out my best friend died and i wore all black for him. Got sent to guidence where they knew i was going to commit suicide and they knew my plan. Send my mom to the office telling them everything. Offer calling the criss center and now i had a criss person in my home trying to help me :L. Now its today im stuck at home cause i didnt want to go to school and i sitting here thinking is it worth all the trouble to save my life. I just found out depression runs in the family so that explains why im here. Why does my life have to be full of hurtful care, supporters who know fucking realize i want to off myself and criss center coming here tell me what i should do! I guess everything right now is full of pity and no promises. :L Stupid fucking bullying it has finally push me off the edge. Im ready to cut cut every piece if flesh that lays on top of my bones grabbing an extension cord and go to hang myself on my tree. I could do it now! but i cant v- v i cant break my promise. :L
Rest In Peace Rayvn. You were the one true friend whom i can trust with my life.
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I’m so sorry for your loss. I hope you’ll get over it in time, allthough you never will forget your friend.
Don’t be scared of the fact depression runs in your family, it does in mine too, and it don’t mean you will suffer from depression all your life. try to read as much about it as you can, and consider to take medicin, i do, and it helps a lot. Please stop thinking about ending your life, you can’t imagine what pain it would cause your family.
Lots of love and good wishes from a stranger in Denmark, europe
Helena
hey im sorry for your loss…how are you doing now? =\
what the heck is a criss?
crisis center sorry i spell it wrong O: