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Do you have this feeling where you have to hold everything inside yourself? That you have to keep everything that is uneeded to say with you in your silence. Feeling trap with everything slumping over you shoulders. I dont want to walk with this weight carrying me down. Do i must scream to the world whats weighing me down. Or should i write it down and show my mom how i really feel? Do i feel safe here? who knows i guess not. All day i wanted my pen. I lost my pen. I cant find my pen. I really need my pen. Have i finally lost it? Probably. There was a gray area in my room. Did it take my pen. I cant find my pen. I really need my pen. Im partically near tears cause i dont have my pen. Can anyone help me find it. I will crawl for days till i find my pen. All i want is my pen. :c