I’m 26, single, and the mother of a four year old. I’m stuck, lonely, scared, and was recently diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. I have little support, even though I have shared with the people in my life what is going on, they fail to understand or help. I don’t want to leave my son without a mother, but right now I’m destroying him as well with my constant mood swings, angry outbursts, and depressive episodes. He is so confused, and so am I. At times I think he would be better off without me. I’m also in school full time and just started a new semester which I am most certainly not ready to deal with. This feels like a whole lot of complaining to me right now, but the only reason why I’m doing this is to vent to people who might understand. I’m so tired. I’m so very goddamn tired.
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Play in your 20’s breed later, It’s going to be hard for you cause you want a life but you got to think about your son. Where is the boy’s dad. Can he help you? your got family right maybe they can help?
Eh, I’ve never posted on here before and I still am reluctant to.. But if possible, you should take a semester off school. I don’t know your situation so I don’t want to say anything else out of assumption.. But I understand thw lonely and scares part.. As much as it may seem like its impossible, you are strong enough to get through it and teach that baby a lesson to never give up.
I know the feeling all too well!!! I’m 20 and i was recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder. the way you feel about how ur mood affects your son is the way i felt about how my moods affected my boyfriend. And honestly i’m doing a lot better now like i really am less mood swings no so intense or as often just some irritability but thats me personally. Im on seroquel 150 mg does me good. i would talk to your therapist or dr about it. But its not only the pill you need to do therapy too like really do it. Just try and be more positive i know its hard but have faith in yourself.
alina’s right. Get on some meds. It will let you lead a normal life for the most part.
I was with a chick for 7 years and she was Bi-Polar and BPD…yikes! But she got the right meds and was pretty stable after that….
Do it for your boy if not yourself. You deserve the right meds too.
There’s NO REASON to live the way you are.
Keep us posted? Thanks!!!
Do not kill yourself, you have a son. You owe your son to be there for him. When you have kids you have to take on some responsibilities. And be a part time student if it’s to much. Take 1 class or something like that.
Where is the dad?
Medications will make a huge difference being that you are bipolar. I don’t think you understand how much of a difference it will make. Bipolar disorder is a very treatable disorder.