I’m fourteen . I’m a very bad kid . I think I’m pregnant . I smoke . I drink . I feel dead inside . I feel like I’ve let everyone down . My ex boyfriend , who yes , I’m in love with … makes me so upset . He used me like a freaking playtoy . For eighteen months . I feel like a whore . Right now , writing this , I’m attempting to kill myself . Took fifteen tylenol . I want help . I want to save myself and this baby . But my heart can’t take this . I can’t take this . It’s killing me . It haunts my dreams . Please someone …read this and help me …
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hey i read your post
I noticed , since you kinda commented .
i can tell you my story if you have time… unless you want to make yourself vomit up the pills
I have all the time in the world .
Not to encourage you or anything but 15 Tylenol probably wont kill you but will make you sick..
Peace was stolen from me and life was forced upon me Jan 13th 1972… The result of a lunchtime accident… My Dad was in a popular band and a mean drunk’n drug addicted ass. My mom was a doormat… The molestation began when I was 4 and went on for several years by a family friend… I was a child porn star… I remember running around my dads parties drink the drinks people would leave unattended… I took my first hit of weed in kindergarten… I had 2 older brothers.. My dad would beat us with jump ropes, fists and bang our heads together or into the wall… His mental and verbal abuse was bad too… After the beatings he would tell us not to cry or he would give us something to cry about… So I learned at a very young age to stop crying and show no hurt emotions… The thing is they still existed inside… Started stealing bottles of liquor from the store in 4th grade, smoking weed often, snorting diet pills, cross tops or whatever i could take from my moms purse… Started meth and cutting in 7th grade… I was a skate punk… hated myself and everyone else but greeted life with a facade face… a high school drop out i married when I was 21 divorced at 33, i guess not being able to show emotions doesnt work well with a partner… Drinking heavily for 6 years, meth for 3 years i now stand at a turning point in my life… now 39… suicide thoughts have left for the time… i am reluctant to give up my misery… i love my misery and nobody will take that away from me… love and happiness will be taken so i dont give it room to grow in my life… i stand at the fork in the road for the first time in many years… the 98%er that I was i could never take that step off the ladder and finish it… so what do i do now..?… i can go for the gold or stay with what I am familiar with… happiness with a chance of losing it or misery forever…?
screamingfetus I’ve been where you are at. That is the worst time in your life when you are at the crossroads. I don’t know anything that will help you since it has to be YOUR decision. But I have found that having someone to talk to who TRULY understands you helps clear the cobwebs and sharpens your focus. I’m just killing time and if ya want an ear, I’m here. peace
Hi-I just want to tell you and as many suffering people tonight that there is HOPE! Please go to Hay House Radio online-you will find so much Love and Comfort there!! Listen as many hours a day as you can–every day! Your life
absolutely CAN GET BETTER!! Much Love to You & All of us learning humans!!
hey 🙂
I’m the same age as you and a girl so if you need someone to talk to then email me at livelovelaugh1313@hotmail.co.uk 🙂 I’m no professional but I’ll listen and rty to give advice as best i can