My boyfriend plans on killing himself w/ a gun tonight and I’m sitting here trying to play games with him, and doing things with him to make him happy and keep his mind away from it but I feel as though I’m losing him slowly and by the end of the night, it will all be over. It’s kind of like being on the bedside of a cancer patient… Also, by the end of this, I feel as though life will revert back to it’s blandness as before I met him and I’ll feel like an empty drone again. I’ll have very little incentive to live, once more; My suicidal tendencies will be stronger than before but I really don’t want to just lose.
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You should tell him how he makes you feel and if you lost him you wouldn’t know what to do. I have a girl too and sometimes I want to die but I know I never will die cause I have her. Good luck.
I feel like everything I try to say doesn’t reach him. I don’t think he cares much about how I feel, and I understand the feeling.. He doesn’t HAVE to take me into his consideration I guess
you know how the feeling is, it’s hard to reach inside. Just keep holding him and telling him what he means to you and how much you love him.
At the end of the day when it’s just us looking at the “darkness”, we all just want someone to love US??? Doesn’t sound so hard does it…….?
I can’t hold him. He’s not near me. He’s not even within a 500-1000 mile radius.
You CAN reach through the phone, the computer and you try and hang on, he’ll feel it and it will make him think twice. He’s lucky to have you and I bet somewhere inside all that pain he knows it.
Keep trying! Never give up! Even if you don’t succeed, at least you will not have that terrible feeling that you didn’t do everything you possibly could. And if you succeed in changing his mind, fantastic!