I often wish I could go back to the days of My childhood,cliched as that is.Not because I desire some lost sense of innocence but because I had so much potential laying before Me.I was a good student.I was thoughtful and considerate.My family was proud of Me.Now at the age of twenty,I feel like I’ve completely failed at Life.I was a lousy student in secondary school and fucked up a lot in exams.I am only just scraping by in College in a course I hate but took to make people happy.I only have a few friends and I can tell They don’t like Me.Anytime I start forming a bond I mess it up with My own stupidity.I’ve grown to hate many aspects of My personality.My family doesn’t like Me.I just wish I was good at something.That I could make people see that I’m not just some waster who is only concerned with Himself.But I know that its not going to happen.I want to make others happy again.And I’m beginning to think that will only happen once I’m gone
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Don’t live up to anyones expectations but your own. Do what makes you happy. listen your not perfect, no one is. but if you want to accompish stuff in life then go ahead but do what make you happy and no one else. family, they have to love you, may not like you, some of them but they all love you, no matter what you do. sure they might no like some of the things you’ve done but hey everyone makes mistakes. theres no one in this world that hasnt made a mistake. and love the way you are. hey you have friends at least some people dont. but your you, no one in this world is you, be proud of that or make it into something a bit more. Also put your self out there, make new friends, some who apprecate you better or go out some more. something to make YOU happy. and trust me, things wouldnt be better if had left. people in this world do love you. and you’ll regret it if you do. you’ll look back and say, i could have done this or i could have done that. so please, live life and have fun, you only get one life you know? live it well
Please don’t give up. Your are so young. I’m sure you have beauty, physical ability, and you are definatly young enough to go to a college that you want to go to. To do what you want. You don’t have a husband or child depending on you. You can even go to a hospital to get medical assitance for your situation. I am 31 an ugly old hag with a child and a helpless husband. I can’t even get help even if I wanted I’m too old to go back to school for any other proffession and I have no escape even to commit suicide. I can’t leave my helpless family on their own even though they hate me. Please try not to get so down. You know there is something I use when I get down. A short little ditty from the children’s show lazy town. YOU GOTTA STOP CRYING YOU GOTTA KEEP TRYING. It’s a good song and even if you sing it with tears in your eye’s it can help you put down the blade your about to hurt yourself with and remind you that you are ok and things will look up as long as the sun still shines.
@wordless @ 31 you are not an old hag and I’m sure you’re not ugly and you’re never to old to go back to school if you got a 4year degree you would only be 35 with potential for a good job. That’s better than a lot of people. @chalky I’m going to give you some advice I wish I would’ve got @ 20 you can not please everybody and the sooner you go after what YOU want the better. Its way better to fail @ following your dreams than succeed @ someone else’s.
There’s hope for you both. Even if you don’t go back to college, there are many things you could do to survive and find happiness. You can get a general studies degree and take a wide range of courses and electives, if you can afford it. But you can also get a job in something you really enjoy and learn on the job! They might not pay that well in the beginning, but you’ll have your foot in the door. Then, if you persist, the sky is the limit.
@wordless within
there is adult colleges and regular colleges that offer adult only classes. you can go back to school. there is also the university of phenix, which many adults use. my dad took classes at the university of phenix when he was in his 40s…