Hello everyone, I’m going to start off with “It’s been a while since I have posted here” Or even looked at this website. I would have liked to believe that I was getting better, but it seems that things only got worse. I know people and they call me their friends, even though I’m just the “drop by and say hi but that’s it” aspect of their life. I also get very mad easily. I have my opinions and when people act like they are wrong, or like I shouldn’t have my own opinions, well that makes me very mad. I hate when people tell me to “say sorry” to them, I also hate when people always say “you make me do this, you make me feel this”. Because The fact of the situation is, I’m not forcing anyone to do anything or feel anything. It’s their own fault they feel or do that certain thing. I’ll admit that I go overboard sometimes, but over the years of me being hurt (hit, yelled at, or flat out humiliated) by men, or even my old best friends who were female. I hold grudges too. I hate that everyone’s lives went on to being… Wonderful, without me. I hate that I can’t be in certain people’s lives.
I’m a strong disbeliever of god. Very strong. I find it hard to have relationships with guys who believe there is a god. It’s who I am. I can’t stand it. (I won’t get into it on here). I’m atheist. That is who I AM.
There is nothing wrong for me being Atheist. But for some reason I receive hell from it.
I’m 17. I’m 17 and already have a date set. A date set for if life doesn’t get better.
I push people away from me. But I have reasons for it. I don’t like when people become clingy. I don’t like when people say they love me 24/7. I don’t like when If I do something it’s the most horrible thing in the world, but if they do it, it’s perfectly find. That pisses me off. I feel like everyone just pushes ALL the blame on me. It’s just ME that’s doing something. I’M the reason this friendship fails. I’M the FUCKING reason this relationship fails. Because I’M the one upset that they ditched me, LIED to me, or I’M the one who didn’t reply them right away. But hey…. If I do something like that I’LLLLLL be the one in trouble, AGAIN. Oh and hey… If I’m depressed I need to perk right up, if I don’t become happy right away it’sbecause I’M not trying hard enough.. That makes sense. I know.
-As the date nears I’ll let you all know
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Some people are just complete assholes, and they don’t deserve your time. I know you’re a good person, you’ve just got to find people who appreciate you, because they’re the ones worthy of your time.
Don’t let assholes dictate when you go. MyLife is completely right. You are a good person. Some idiots run of the belief that if they do somethign then it’s fine, but if someone else does it then ‘OMG it’s the WORST thing EVARR!!!’ I have experienced this myself. Ignore these people. Focus on what you enjoy, what interests you in life. One day you will be out of wherever you are and you can go as far away as you want and you won’t have to see any of these people again.
I am an athiest too and it enrages me when people force their beliefs on me, so I think I can understand a bit where you are coming from. Like I said though, you can leave in the future. There are plenty of places where people don’t bat an eyelid if you are an athiest.
I wish you well in whatever you choose.
Yeah to touch on the atheist thing, I totally agree. I mean I think I could probably be with a girl who believed in some sort of god, but the idea of actually like being christian (or jewish, muslim, etc..) is just too silly for me to be with someone who was. I don’t think anyone who believes is dumb, but I just lose a little respect I guess if someone can blatantly ignore reason because of faith. Buddhism I exclude, because (as far as I know) there’s no real literal god or anything, it’s a system of ideals and morals as far as I can tell from my limited knowledge of it.
@MyLife: Very well put. I just wish I could put “religion” aside and be with someone who is religious.. doesn’t seem like any one else is even In to me! Hah! Just Religious nut-jobs (seriously)
Please read my post “I Was Nothing”… I hope it can help…
Hello, I hope the very best for you. I used to be an atheist too. I’m not anymore but listen-love and happiness is for ALL OF US!!
Check out Hay House Radio online-there are lots of different speakers with different opinions but all very loving & encouraging! Wishing A Warm Blanket of Comfort for You & All Who Read This!
Xo
Im sure you know who this is lol. You HAVE got to stop letting people get to you. Fuck them if they make you feel responsible for shit that you didnt do or that they think you did. No one should have the right to make you apologize to them, they should be thankful that you even exist in their life and is their friend. You are unique in your own ways and that should be good enough for all to see. I have known you for quite a while now and Ive seen nothing but positive things from you. You’ve talked to and helped quite a few people here and you should be proud of that. Ive also liked you since I first met you and have grown to love you but thats just my feelings xD. Dont ever end your life until the day we meet so I can show you the better part of the world. The grass IS greener on the other side but you’ve got to be patient until the time comes. You probably dont want to hear it but i do LOVE YOU!
Always yours,
wishyouwerehere 🙂
I’m not a religious nut job 🙁