Loss, Heartbreak, and lies

  September 6th, 2011 by Mickey

Hi. I am only 14, and people keep telling me that it’s just part of being a teenager, and being in high school. Sometimes though I don’t think so. This is only some of the stuff that has happened.

 

I moved to a small town year before last during the summer (so I had no friends for a summer and the majority of my 8th grade year), and let’s just say all the people around here have known each other since they were little, and most of them look inbreeded. But then I met people and  I (thought) met the most amazing guy ever…until his ex moved back. She started to spread rumors about me like I was cheating, lying, and wanting to beat her up for no reason. He believed her along with all my “friends” (they ended up lying to me the whole time and just were friends with me because I dated him) He said he trusted them because he had known them longer. The week he broke up with me was the week of the earthquake and tsunami in Japan. I have family in Japan and actually a couple died from the earthquake/tsunami. Then my long term best friend from when I was little died earlier during the year because of cancer…And I was still sad from it. So I had quite a few FML moments but I still managed to smile, but then him and his friends just kept beating me down and down mentally I couldn’t take it anymore. My heart became so stressed out it gave out during school one day, I came back and they started rumors that I over dosed. Which wasn’t true. I was even tested and I had no drugs in my system. But a month later I did though because now the school was against me, not just them. So I had no friends. I died for a couple minutes, but they brought me back. I was currently recovering, but something happened. I met someone who changed me. He made me happy instead of depressed, made me feel like a million bucks, instead of a pile of garbage, and he was just amazing and I havent felt like this in a long time. He asked me out, and I said yes, but once word got out, one of his friends got mad, and started hating him. And I know it was my fault. We stopped going out though and it crushed me. I don’t want to go though it again, but I don’t want to give up. I have no idea what to do.

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