I’ve been seeing a psychologist lately. I was totally agianst it at first, but then I thought what the hell, life is crap already what else could go wrong. She told me that if she needed to she could have me admitted to a psych ward…WOAH! hold on! that would only make me feel shityer! I would have everyone breathing down my neck and I would be a lab rat that people just watch all day. I dont think I can talk to her anymore. she scares me and thats not how I want to feel as I went to her to feel comfortable and talk about lifes hassles. It’s already hard for me to open up, but hey what can you do. Now I feel like my words meant nothing to her! she is just waiting for me to say something wrong so that she can throw me to a psych ward…I guess I won’t be going back!
Things are better off if I keep them to myself.
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You can talk to me. I understand. God… Reading all these posts is so familiar. I’ve been where you are. If you tell them you want to die, they want to lock you up. It’s the only way they know how to handle the situation because they feel responsible if you go out and harm yourself after talking to them. I had one therapist want me to sign a “no suicide” contract before he’d treat me. I told him that if I could sign that, I wouldn’t be there talking to him.
Keeping it bottled up just leads to cutting and more pain.
Please know that someone out here understands and cares; and has survived to live a pretty long life. I’m now 67. I know–beyond ancient, but not really, just my body.
I was totally like that too. But It’s not that bad, once you get used to going to appointments. A psychologist can’t really send you to a psych ward though, it’s up to a psychiatrist or doctor (at least, that’s what i’ve been told) anyways, It’s definitely not better if you keep things to yourself, because they’ll keep building and building in your mind until you explode (not literally, mind!) If you need someone to talk to, I’m here. Or talk to someone you’re close to, it doesn’t have to be a psych.
Keyblade is right. And it really does take a LOT to get sent to a psych ward, and usually when they do this, it’s for your own protection (to stop you from hurting yourself).
Ask your psychologist about Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. This involves changing the way you DO things which effects the way you see yourself. So it’s more than just talking. Sounds like this could help you, because you are a do-er – you’re looking for help and you’re proactive. Keep us updated
thanks for all the support, I’m just scared to open up fully. I have tried taking my life more than once, one time I almost succeeded! I know if I tell her this she will freak and either break the confidential agreement and tell my mom or send me to a psych ward. She has the right to do all of this. If I tell a friend, they will probably tell someone else. *Sigh* its a lose lose situation and it sucks.
I’m no shrink, but I doubt that the idea you tried to kill yourself probably wouldn’t shock her… it’s her job, she’s probably used to hearing that stuff.
She will only tell yr mum or send you to the psych ward if she thinks yr in danger. If you keep talking to her, she will feel like you are making progress (and you will be!). It’s hard to open up, but just take it slow, whatever makes you feel comfortable. As long as you are communicating your true feelings, you will be making progress in her book.