Is this is what life is. To face the challenges the world throws at you. Well i face it. I face it big time. Im dying and weeping on the inside. Being a stubborn as can be and look at me. I push two people away whom try to help me. I didnt need it. I didnt want it. Thewy were just wasting their time. I even told them that but insted of listening i get yell at. And see… they left they are done with me like everyone else. They are doing putting up with me. They deicide to do something now? But its too late its too later for everything. I save people. But they cant save me. I help people. But im too stubborn to listen. But now its over. Everything will be over. I will dangle from a tree and no one can save me. This will be the biggest sin i will ever will do. But now it will be over. Now i wont have to hurt anyone or push them away. Now… i will leave everything i ever accomplish in this wricked world.
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You can still get help. Get help even if you don’t want to. You won’t regret it. You can live a happy life.
I get every bit of this, I take everything I read on here; and take it too heart, because half of every story on here.. I can relate to in some type of way. I’ve been here, and still am. Everyday, I’m helping someone with their problems; helping someone get back on their feet, when I’m not even capable of standing on my own. But, it was tearing me down; piece by piece, I wanted to help people. I didn’t want people to be un-happy, even if I was. In my mind, I didn’t matter, and I still don’t. I’m not here to judge yew, or tell yew whats wrong. Because, I’ve been in a physceactric ward for 4 suicidal attmepts. In my perspective, there is no reason for living. But, I’m just here to speak my mind. Contact me, if yew would like to talk. I’m here.