Hi guys, most of you know me by now (unless I haven’t posted for THAT long?), but I guess I’m just here to say that I am ready. I won’t promise that tonight is the night because something could get in the way… But I know how I want to do it and I DO have the supplies I need to do it. I think if one more thing goes wrong (meaning if somehting else makes me feel shittier) I’ll do it. I don’t deserve the boy. I don’t deserve to be able to put someone through what I put the rest through. I thought to myself for a split second that maybe this chance will do me some good. But I realize I am a bad person, I always will be. I always will be the same girl. I won’t get the guy. I won’t let myself. He can ask all he wants but I WON’T budge…. But why? Why should I put anyone through…. me? Why should I?
I don’t think it will kill me but I’m starting on a bottle of pills I keep next to me.
Goodnight.
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you can always change, my friend,
and about this boy,, perhaps, (im just guessing) perhaps he wants,, to be your ‘bf’ andd,, you’re afraid that you’ll just.. mess up and hurt him, i guess,, mhmm,
well, first things first you know?, before anything, yous’ must *first learn how to be *Friends*,, and,,, once you’ve learn to do so then…. you know,, the path should become more clear,
anddd,,,,don’t let the man get you dOwn,,, that reminds me of a song, i’ll post it up right now
(i don’t know what’s grinding your gear *exactly so..yah)
…and,, im just listening to this song,, and it made me thinking, and i want to say sorry because,, I was sounding , too pleasant in my last comment i feel, and,, the predicament/condition in which you are within is with the utmost seriousness,,
,,iono what i can do for you though,, if you need any advice well, im always around here (for you all as well)
c’mon Be Strong!, you can do it!