Hi All. I’m a 27 year old male suffering from a mental condition (schizo effective disorder) that has left me strongly medicated to the point that I can’t feel anything emotionally and I’m constantly in a numb state to the point of everything being unbearable. Unfortunately this is the only medication that’s available for my condition, so I’m really at a loss for help. Since the development of my condition my life has severely deteriorated. Most of my friends are gone, I can’t work, and I’m completely isolated. I don’t feel strong enough to do anything about my situation which has been like this for the last 6 months and so I’m thinking about taking my own life. I’m not the type of person that believes in Heaven or anything. I think when we die that’s it. Our consciousness goes somewhere else in the universe which isn’t controlled by some “master being” or anything. I’ve gotten to the point where I logically just think I want to go into an eternal sleep cause that just seems the most serene.
Anyways, my question is what’s the easiest way to get this done. I’ve recently read about the suicide bag with the helium from the peaceful pill book but I’ve researched this and read stories of people passing out and waking up 12 hours later with puke all over them – still alive. I live with other people some my family so if I’m going to get this done it has to work flawlessly without any errors – I don’t want to be admitted to a state hospital. The helium thing seems rather difficult with testing the levels and setting it up and what not. I originally wanted to do a car/carbon monoxide ruitine, but after reading that most modern cars don’t emit enough carbon monoxide this seems like a problem. What do you think is the easiest option. Some chemical that I can drink that’s from a hardware store would seem logical but I don’t know enough about it to know what to buy. Any help would be appreciated.
Thoughts? Ideas? Comments?
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Thought: I’ve studied schizophrenia and it’s disorders. It sounds like it sucks. No offense
Idea: Don’t kill yourself and join the Marine Corps
Comment: Be cool man. Sucks bein schizo but we don’t getta choose who we are. All you can do is make the best of what you have. Like for instance if you have it bad enough then the government has to pay for living expenses. I went to boot camp with someone who had severe ADD and OCD. hell i’ve got OCD. After he got out of Boot Camp he’d completely changed. schizo is a psychological defect. Boot Camp is mostly psychological and may be able to help you. It helps clear your mind better than anything i’ve ever seen, cuz you get no time to think in boot camp, your constantly moving and screaming and… its just an amazing experience. and your 27 so your still old enough to enlist.
Yeah TC, Ive already tried that. They wont accept people with any mental conditions – but thanks.
Now i know that bullshit. i personally work with someone who’s bipolar. they mother fuckers in who are all sorts of fucked up and they won’t accept someone who’s a little schizo? I think i know the reason and i know it’s not cause your a lil crazy. Don’t feel bad it’s that the military is trying to cut back. Meanin their kickin mutha fuckaz out for jus bout anythin. so sorry to say your probably not gonna get another chance for about two years. sorry bro i guess i kinda forgot about that.
@markimooo I just read your post. I have done a lot of research and found the beat way is the Helium exit. Cause it’s fast and you feel no pain.
You just got to get the set up right. I hope you feel better and it dose not come to that. Hope you get off your medication. And get your life back.