When??

  Today I decided life is pointless. It’s just full of broken hearts, hurt feelings, and people that don’t give a crap about you. My mom is normally always here for me.. But not today. I don’t think she realizes how much it bothers/hurts me when she says the things she does. I know that if I’m gone things will be easier for her and probably everyone else. I’m tired of trying to be perfect and getting good grades and hiding all my flaws. Because sooner or later it won’t matter.
  Everyone dies.. Whether it’s old age, a car accident, or even suicide. I have been researching what suicide is and what it means. I think I finally realized that I might be. I’m kind of afraid to admit it to myself. But honestly I don’t know that much about it. I know that people have thoughts about killing them selves and they feel like no one cares. I just want to get away… from everything and everyone. But I know that I can’t do that so I don’t know what else to do. I know that no one will miss me. The question now is.. When?