why cant I kill myself?
why cant my methods work?
why do people insist on stopping me?
why cant you see my pain?
Why cant you see im only trying to stop it?
why cant you let me go? (its not like you care for me)
why not let me hate myself if you hate me?
Why cant I just die with a smile on my face?
why so many masks that no one can see threw?
why is there a why?
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I’ve written a lot of suicide notes with many of these same words. Explaining that I’m in pain and have to do something about it so don’t be mad at me for what I’ve done. You can’t talk about it with family members because they want to brush it off like it’s nothing. People don’t see depression as a real thing. With cancer, you can show them a PET scan or an xray or have them feel the lump.
Why? My guess is because they love you, even if you hate yourself so much you can’t see it.