I don’t understand any of it anymore. I have no reason to have such vivid dreams of dying. I’m in a happy relationship. I’m not in a bad financial situation. I haven’t had anything bad happen recently. So, why in fuck’s sake am I waking up from nightmares that feel so real? I fall asleep, then feel like I’m awake and then proceed to kill myself in some way. And just before then end I wake up. What kind of weird shit is that? I mean, I haven’t remembered having such a bad dream experience since I dreamt of going back to my childhood and killing the child me. I know this is probably very inappropriate and I’m sorry for that. I just need to talk to someone about what’s going on because I feel like I’m losing all control over my recovery, and I’m so scared I’ll lapse back into the old state. And I’d prefer anything over that feeling again.
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I have had dreams like this many times before. If you need someone to talk to, you can always talk to me. Its so scary because they seem so real, but just keep in mind that they are only dreams & not real! Try thinking about all the good things that are going on in your life before you go to sleep & see if that helps reduce the dreams!
Thanks so much, and the same goes to you, you can always talk to me if you need anything at all(: