I marry Satan!

I really do think I marry Satan. My husband for 6 years give me nothing but heartaches and pains. He calls me names, any names you can think about. Horrible, horrible names. He blames me for everything that don’t go on his way. He blames me for anything bad happens in our house, in our life. I tried to fight him back but I am always a weakling, I always lost, I always get hurts. I think he is Satan disguise as a man. I want to run but I have nowhere to go and I couldn’t leave our 2 young kids with him. I once love this man so much but with the 6 years of abuse, all that love was gone long time ago. I hate him, I hate him so much but I don’t have friends, I don’t have family that I can rely on. I’m alone, so alone. All i have to continue to live are my kids. They are too young to lose a mother. 19 months and 5 months old. I couldn’t leave them. So I’m here still stuck with Satan. I told myself, it’s ok I will keep all the pain inside, I will just cry it out. This I will do for my kids. But I pray to God everyday to give me more strength to continue to live. You see, I am from another country so I don’t have any family here that’s close to me and I don’t have friends either co’z since I live with my husband I never got the chance to work. I don’t drive co’z he won’t teach me. I don’t have money either for he won’t give me any. I’m going crazy and I really don’t know what to do anymore. I am stuck with him with nothing on my name. That’s one reason I couldn’t leave him co’z I don’t have a single penny on my wallet. He said I’m lucky he gave me a roof over my head, food to eat and I am still ungrateful. Maybe he is right, I should just be happy to have a roof over my head and food to eat. Since we been married, I think he bought me like 5 total of Clothes. So I got some clothes from a free place every now and then. Well, life still goes on for now. for how long? I don’t know. But I am tired of this life. I am so tired.