i feel so alone .
October 2011
An everlasting friend, 

A feeling if joy that won’t end.
A stop to these constant blows, 

The end of the voice who comes and goes.

Being able to enjoy each breath of air, 

Able to live life with barely a care. 

I’d wished to be able to stay with you, 

But my wishes, they just don’t come true.
To steal someones pills to overdose? You’ll probably laugh and say yes. Just want opinions.
I Applied For College I Mean i wanna Make Something Of My Life And I ddidnt Get Accepcted So idk Wat To Do.. I Feel Like My world Is jus over now.. im so hurt… i have been crying for hours.. i turned my fhone off i jus dont want to talk to anybody at all. im sorry but it hurts so bad..
The ears,quite sensitive to the sound
Sometimes the silence, screams out loud
The eyes lie, when visions are so clear
You read between the lines
when there’s no words to be found
Stories appear.
Dont smell the most familiar scent,
even when it leaks from your wounds,
And leaves your clothes drenched.
Leaves, left. Never coming back
The last taste on your tongue,
Those lips that left you out of breath
Love,kiss of death.
headache after headache after headache. Is it the light from my computer? Or from the tv om the screen. The scent of soap the lingers in my basement. Is it making it worst? I am not me today. I am a complete stranger in someone else’s body. Who am i? I dont know. I really dont know who i am. But all i know… i want rope around my neck dangling from a tree.
i want to die help me
i been searching for someone to share my life with..but i couldn’t…no one can understand me
my life is a pain i hate this human kind..i wanna get out from here… i wonder anyone out there feels the same way
as i do.. if so feel free to write me.. i have arranged everything to do it…went shopping bought a nylon robe.. tomorrow im going to write my suicide note and thats it im off.. not so soon im planning to enjoy at least a month i have to spend my all saving lol..fuck this universe fuck the human kind.. here my email s.tck40@yahoo.com
I don’t want to think of suicide. I truly don’t. Yet, my life is becoming unbearable to the point of which I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m helpless. I’m desperate. Any response would help me:
Over the last 4 and 1/2 years, I’ve switched high-school, gone to university. Along with this – that is, the changing of schools – my greatest hope would be to have, to make friends.
But it hasn’t happened.
I’ve prayed; I’ve practiced patience. But nothing has changed my situation.
I have no friends. I have no one to call on my cell phone (my contact list) is empty. I have no one […]
its nice to know that there are people who care, complete strangers who care enough to offer to listen to me, people who show more care then any of my family or anyone from school does o_O thanks to the complete strangers who have made me feel a little better, just knowing that there is people who care (even though they don’t know me) is really reassuring and comforting <3
Today is the 24th year and one day that I have been on this earth. 21 years ago I was miss lead and wound up loss. 12 years ago I wanted to DIE. I still want to every day. Out of 12 years I have only maybe had 2 or 3 hours where I didnt want to die. More people In my life makes it so much harder. I want to die and be at peace but I dont want to hurt anyone either.
So if you’re like me and you hate the idea of being alive in general and not just living your own shitty life, you might be a bit pissed off at the thought of successfully offing yourself only to be born as someone or something new, possibly with an even shittier life.
So I thought I’d share something a friend told me (obviously I have no idea if it’s true or not but thought I’d share it anyway). The idea is that when you’re dying and you see the bright light, AVOID IT. It’ll just reset your soul and memories and stuff and you’ll just be […]
people are constantly doing things and saying things that will put others down.
maybe it’s just a joke to you, but to others it could be a life.
it just makes me crazy when i see people, my friends even, being bullies or hurting other people.
in my suicide note, i will be sure to leave a comment that will read, “and this is also to all you motherfuckers who ever put me down”
maybe they’ll learn something then.
sigh i wish everyone was just NICE
Ive thought about my life. this world full of heart ache and lonliness and ive watched my mom go through struggle after struggle. alone. and i dont want to live in this world of cruelty any longer. but i dont want to hurt my mom. Im a cutter. I have been for about 3 1/2 years now. But i dont believe slashing my wrist would be good especially if i want to do it respectfully. for my families sake. i was contemplating drowning but i heard that it is hard to do after i did some online research. I dont want to hang myself because […]
Im not killing myself. You can say its murder cause the only crime that will be taking is by one. Im not going to kill myself. You could say im murdering myself. So no one but me will be lock up in fansty land.
I’ll be honest. The worst should have passed already. I mean, just last year I wore one pair of cloths like a religion and cut twice a day. It was so hard for my to get out of that, my mother died when I was 2 and my dad is hopeless. It’s wrong to say but I hate my sister, she is genuinely a bad person and I can’t stand her. None of my friends noticed, and I stopped going out with them anyway.Â
That was hard. But it’s been a while since then, I own more cloths, but not much more self confidence. I don’t believe […]
Right now I’m getting Harped at by my parents to go give my aunt a birthday present, I don’t want to. Not that I hate my aunt or anything, but, I don’t feel like moving. I’m a lost cause, I’m 17, and too afraid go to school. Was I bullied? Beaten up? No, I’m just a coward. Social phobic, and agoraphobic from birth, it is only recently that I refuse to go. Last year, my best friend moved away, which caused my depression to relapse. Last time a best friend moved away, at the age of 13, I became suicidally depressed, not only that, but […]
i’m 14 and i have attempted suicide 4 times in the past year. i was sexually abused by my grandad for 6 years, i get bullied at school, i get beat up a lot and i’m classed as a emo. i have no friends, i used to have friends but they’re dead now… i was 11 when i was first raped and made to watch my best friend be raped and beaten to death, i was then beaten and ended up in hospital. i’ve been raped more than 12 times and i slit my wrists because the pain is kinda a escape and it takes my mind off […]
I never though cutting would be so addicting, but blood so beautiful
Deep marvelish red, it’s quite pleasurable to watch the blood escape from the cut and rush down my arm as if it was trapped under my skin prision for eternity. I’m really quite envous ,as i wish to escape
I don’t really feel depressed anymore, per se. Â More that I lack the desire to live. Â Everything is so pointless. Â College is a waste of time. Â This is my fourth year of college and yet the only useful information I’ve learned could be compounded into 2 or 3 classes. Â Everything else is mostly just a repeat of high school (except easier sometimes) or useless trivia.
In theory, I have friends. Â But in practice? Â Let’s just say I haven’t had more than 5 minutes of conversation with any of my so-called friends in the past, oh, 2 months about. Â And although it would be nice to […]