This being my first post, I am finding myself proud of doing something like this…sharing my feelings. Although i do not know you (reader) I am finally sharing how i feel and it will be the truth. I always seem to sugar coat everything for people..whether its my family or friends. I want them to think I am happy and confident and successful. When all I am is failing…and when I am alone,I am not completely happy. Often when I am alone, I break down. I have no reason to cry really except that I just have this inner feeling of sadness and failure. I feel like I am not good enough, not smart enough. I feel like I am constantly fighting to impress others. I hate feeling broken like this. I walk around sometimes and see groups of people together and see how happy they are…I wonder..how can they make it look so easy. Although ive become really good at pretending how easy it is to smile, laugh or have an enjoying time. Its often a struggle. I struggle though everything
I cant continue right now… i didnt think it would be this painful.
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I feel and think much as you do, care about many of the things you care about, although most people do not care about them. You are not alone.
Yea man, there’s alot of people in the same place. Everyday for me is a struggle to look like I’m ok, but lately I haven’t even been bothering to smile. Everyday I see thousands of people, mostly all with the same vacant stare into space or jumpy as hell. I think that everybody has to fake being happy from time to time, some just have to fake more than others. Anyway it sounds like you might be depressed, maybe see a doc
This is alot like i feel, i have a lot of respect for you. Honsetly e best way for this is to talk to someone, try to not feel alone, dont allow your self to feel like this. Thats what ive been told.. Still trying to make it work though ):