my dad is so unfair, every night he comes home from work, he doesn’t smile or give me a hug, its ‘Have you done your homework’ or ‘get off your computer and go to sleep’. Its makes me want to cry. I do cry, it makes me feel so unhappy and i just want a happy life! When my Dad makes me feel bad it reminds me of all the other times that people make me feel bad. I already don’t like myself and criticism just makes it worse. I can do nothing right to him, im hopeless, i know he thinks im this slut at school but I’ve never even kissed a boy and im 14. I get good grades, but dad just focuses on the bad side to it rather them me topping math and science. Its all for him, i just want to make my dad proud of me. I really do, i feel that i have to bottle up all these emotions and I’ve hated my family in the past, been so distant, and now that i am opening up to them, i guess the just don’t want a bar of it. i Can’t wait to leave, run away and never see my family again, i love them, but i can’t stand their refection anymore.
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Lalala I think its great that you can express yourself. Talking to the school counselor can help. Parents are so bogged down by their own drama they really don’t see how it affects their kids. I don’t know how your Father would react, but when my mom was like that I let her relax for awhile then went to her and said Mom, I love you…can I have hug. After awhile she started looking forward to it, but it took some persistence. Please believe in yourself, speak your mind…share your pain. Right it down and read it to them, it will help you stay on point. Hugs girl…oh and don’t be in sucbh a rush to kiss boys, they are headaches anyway. You will have plenty of time for that, save your kisses for guys that treat others kindly.
There could be numerous and varied reason for the behaviors your father is showing. The household finances , loan repayments, insurances, car notes, water and light bills, tax’s, worry if he’ll be laid off where he works, works for himself, yet no profits, etc, etc, etc,.
I had to rethink my parents at an older age, someone told me hey you know what, they were doing the best they could from day to day, not perfect just human, and in many instances they missed the parenting thing 100%.
I did have, the basics, and many in the world do not grow up with the things that were provided to me.
I can assure you that there are teens that have to go to the Library to use a computer, alot of them don’t have the option of being told to turn off the computer while at their parents home.
My dad was also the same. Getting 98 percent on a test he would ask why I didn’t get the other 2 percent. I felt like I was never good enough. He went about trying to make me a better person in the wrong way. When I asked to stay over at my boyfriends house at 18 he told me I may as well stand on the street corner and prostitute myself. I was constantly on the verge of hating him just wanting him to disappear. I’ve later realised his parents never cared to get him to try in school or told them they loved him once in his life. It was his way of showing her cared in the best way he could. Not the right way of course but he wanted the best and was trying to improve on how his parents raised him. I’m sure once you have realised what a strong person you can be even with people holding you back you will realise you are entitled to making your own choices and you will get through it 🙂