So much has happened in the past year. I am slowly getting worse and it is scaring me. I have more friends who support me now which is why I gave up cutting two weeks ago today. They thought it would be good for me but I crave it and I am going crazy. I told my mom about my cutting and all she did was give me a speech about how I am throwing my life away. She hasn’t since mentioned the topic and it makes me feel ashamed that she won’t talk about it. My friends are getting upset with the fact that I don’t want help. They too have noticed me getting worse and my best friend always tells me how scared she is. I guess I would be scared if I was her too. Well I keep pushing back my suicide date but I don’t know how much longer I can postpone it.
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Suicidal and depressed people often unintentionally scare loved ones. You should seek counseling and try not to feel bad about feeling bad. The people around you are scared because they care and they likely don’t know what to say.
I am working on getting help. Thank you for your comment. I truly appreciate it 🙂
Hey well at least you are working on getting help, do your friends know that? You say they are upset with the fact that you don’t want help. At least you have those friends there to support you. You make cutting sound like an addiction, but I suppose maybe it is. Your mom’s reaction wasn’t the best, but you shouldn’t feel ashamed of who you are, yea you cut so what so do a lot of other people. I have seen a lot of people on this site that sound really cool and really nice that also cut. It really doesn’t mean you are throwing your life away. Hey and even with things getting worse you keep pushing back that suicide date so at least that is good.
I hate it when people think
that all we need to solve our “petty” problems
is a good old talking-to.
My family has given me speeches too
and I was annoyed out of my mind.
But stay strong…
I’m still here, aren’t I?