How the Love of My Life Can’t Know..

U dont know but my story has gotten to be a long one. i wish i could tell u everything to see what u would say. Would u call me emo? Would u never talk to me again? I cant risk this chance. thats why i just want to leave u a note and never have to explain. i wish u could just look at me and know everything i was feeling. but for the safety of u, i cant speak up. not even lead u to what it could be. i hate feeling like im lying to u. how i just wanted u to know what i had done just to get here to stay with u. everything i do everyday to try and keep myself happy just to spend another hour or two with u. the love of my life. one thing that makes me smile. Oh how i wish u could know..