So this time ive really done it. I got caught smoking weed in my dorm. Before everyone jumps on me, i really thought i could get away with it since i was the only damn person on my floor over break. My dad keeps saying that with all the other troubles in my life he would disown me if i fucking screwed up again. I spent almost 1400 dollars in 4 months on weed and was caught by my parents. Even though it was my money they were seriously disappointed. Now im getting kicked out of my dorm, getting bad grades, and was just about to be in the clear. This is one of the worst days of my life. I had a nervous breakdown in one of my classes today. My dad is abusive, hes going to make my life hell for the time im stuck at home. I really don’t want to go home. Not to mention that now my college education, ROTC plans, and all the reputation ive built for myself is completely gone. My parents might never speak to me again if i run away. Im thinking about just moving in with friend to avoid my families disappointment. I quit, its either run and hide or kill myself. No options, i cant power through this struggle like all the rest. Im a failure, im sorry i fucked up again mom and dad, i know you just wanted to be proud of me and i blew it. I really love all you guys, i just cant do this any more.
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First off, relax. Although that was a mistake. This is something you can overcome. This is one of those times where you are measured and tested. We all make mistakes in life and we all will keep on doing so, even you parents. I have a 5 year old daughter so trust me when I say. You dad and mom will not stop talking to you. You reputation is something you can build back. And trust me you did not lose everything. You seem like a smart person so you can achieve it all again. Yes it will take work, but you can do it. And if you fight through this and make it, it can make you a better person. And I am sure you father will be proud of you afterwards. And if not, I will be. But ummm honestly, learn from your past mistakes. At some point you have to learn smoking weed is not really working out for you, now is it? I mean is it really worth everything?
I said you twice when I meant your. Sorry for the typos
I am at a similar position, friend. This is definitely a problem, but I think it is possible to bounce back from it. However, do learn the lesson.