What happened?

I never intended to say yes when he asked to marry me, it was all out of emotion. Of course I loved him, more than I have ever loved anyone. He made me into the happiest girl, he stopped me from hurting myself again when I wanted to so badly and he gave me faith in love. I believed every word he said, no matter what it was…and that was my first mistake.
He claimed he loved me and would do anything for me, but there were all these things I didn’t know and all these things he wouldn’t tell. He’s the type to keep things from me or twist his words just so he wouldn’t hurt me, that caused me to get to the pain and sadness I feel today.
Lie after lie after lie, I had no clue where it would stop. Would he stop like he claimed, or would I keep finding these dirty little secrets? I tried not to snoop but when someone is so notorious for keeping secrets to not hurt me, that was the only thing I could do. And this river of lies and deceit sent me crumbling to my knees.
I knew I should’ve never fallen so deeply in love with a person, last time I did I overdosed and nearly lost my life. A girl can’t stop her heart from feeling love, but a girl can stop her heart from beating. I keep on with my life as is, lies and all, but in the back of my head I always think it could all be over in a matter of seconds…it just depends when