16 and Alone

im 16, as u proly guessed from the title. 6 months ago i tried commiting suicide. i felt so alone, i had several “friends” and only one even realized anything was wrong. she was amazng, and i confided everything in her, the only problem is she now lives on the other side of the world. she is very popular n her new home, plus the giant time dfference, so it is very hard to talk to her anymore. the rest of my friends only use me. i am athiest in a very catholic family and nobody knows, nobody knows about my suicide atempt or my sadness in this country, and all my friends make fun of me for me irregularly smoking pot to try and feel better at the worst points of my life. im sick of going on facebook and nobody talking to me, sick of going days at a time without somebody sending me a txt just to talk, and im sick of being so shy i cant make any new friends