Every 18 minutes,
Somebody dies from a sucide.
Every 43 seconds,
Somebody attempts one.
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I now am part of the statistics. I have attempted a suicide on Nov. 9, 2011. Depression got the best of me and I ended up in the hospital bed with wires all around me. I remember EMTs yelling at me to stay awake. I took my sister’s pill in school that day and I passed out in my Algebra class they forced me to tell the truth on what happened. I was nearly dead and I told them. I wish I didn’t though. I am still very depressed even with the medicines. Actually I think the medicines make things worse. I won’t tell anyone though. I keep hidden behind a fake smile each day. One day I plan to take the pills and end my life and take more than the last time.
So now i sit here in class depressed and thoughts of dying racing threw my mind. Maybe I should die. Maybe it’s my fate. Maybe I’m crazy. I don’t know. But I can’t keep staying depressed like I am. Death is a beautiful thing. It gets rid of all pain humans feel. I want to cut but I won’t. Why because I promised. I don’t know what to do anymore.
6 comments
to the well organized mind death is but the next great adventure
Nice one Fred! That is going into the vault of great quotes… 😀
Eh…. Wish I could take credit but my man Dumbledore said it before me.
Dumbledore is right…a lot bits of wisdom in the ole Harry Potter movies. Takes work to want to feel good @ lostsoul…you have to want it, and seems like you’re just giving up…that’s okay. Just know if you do want to reach for a little better feeling within yourself…its is possible. Take care…I feel ya.
“to the well organized mind death is but the next great adventure”
I agree…but there are so many adventures in life, first…
Death is “The Undiscovered Country from whose bourn no traveler returns…”
But there’s still so much to see about life–I promise, it isn’t all bleak, it isn’t all bad…
What’s something you enjoy doing?
Or something you feel is worthwhile?
If you don’t feel anything is worthwhile…
Maybe nothing is, by itself–it’s our thinking it’s worth something that makes us so.
Death is the end of a long journey, and the beginning of another…
I hope you don’t end your journey too soon–“there are more things in heaven and earth than are dreamt of in your philosophy”…
(I like Hamlet.) 🙂
Here’s a thought to cheer you up. You’re GUARANTEED to die. It’s just a matter of when.
I’m sorry I can’t be of any more help than that. I don’t know what you should do either. Maybe there isn’t anything you CAN do. Sometimes there just aren’t any answers.