I’m almost 23. In January my two best friends died. I miss them horribly.
For the last year I’ve been completely alone. I go to work and sit by myself. Then I come home and I’m all alone. Every weekend I’m alone. I thought I had other friends but no bodycares. Everyone I try to talk to just fobs me off or in one case just abuses me. I’ve been completely abandoned.
I try hard to make friends but I’m very shy. I can’t keep living like this… Its been so long… It’s a constant struggle not to cry. I’m thinking about suicide daily.
I just can’t keep going like this. I want this feeling.to stop so bad. I have to make it stop somehow…
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Hello. I can relate to parts of your post: the emptiness, the daily suicidal thoughts, being alone, abandonment (as do many of us on this site). Although you and I are indeed strangers, I care (and so do more people than you might think otherwise) because I’ve been there and know firsthand how painful it is. If ever, you need to release your emotions and express your thoughts then I will try my best to aid you in any way until you feel you are ready to move on to a new chapter in your life.
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Everyone’s hurtin’, a lot of wild stuff going on and it sucks you’re feeling it all. It’s normal to add insult to injury where you’re in the sh.. You said nobody cares, but focus on the two people who took the time to reply. That’s caring. You could say ‘I’ care, and by that I mean YOU. A lot of people forget to care for themselves…may sound trite but is makes a big difference. As crappy as I feel, no one is worthless. Try not to abandon yourself amidst you’re feeling so lonely. I get it, I’m in it too but those are a couple of the things I do and think to help myself. It’s good to let it out..good luck!