I’m completely alone in the world and want to die. I graduated college and was an idiot throughout, so I didn’t get any job offers. I have so many regrets and would give anything to go back to those days and change some things. I now work for my dad and live back in my teenage bedroom. I feel like I had a great opportunity to make something of myself and I blew it all away. And now I have to live out the rest of my life in complete shit. I will never make any money, have any friends, or have a girlfriend. I want to die more than anything. Every day is a struggle and I want it to just go away. I have never been as smart or talented other people my age. Even in sports I was horrible. Posting on a website like this is my last resort. I have tried so hard to appreciate my life and find ways to enjoy it but I just end up hating myself every time. I am despicable and wish I was never born.
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I feel much the same way. From one miserable mind to another, I trully hope that you find what you need in life. Hoping isn’t much, but it’s all I can do.
I just don’t know what to offer, social activities…
Maybe you could go volunteer somewhere…
You also could surf the page, I saw here were some people who wanted to help to others, they left their emails, you could try to write them and not to feel alone.
I know, it’s hard with job, but it’s not only for you, maybe just don’t rush to give up…
I don’t know you personally, but… maybe your life also has some good things, too.
Maybe you could enjoy what you have.And the things those you lack will come to your life a little bit later…Good luck, anyway.
I feel bad again..
I understand every word, and I hate when people say “hang in there” or “it will be OK”, so I won’t say those words.
But, please believe that this is a phase, the pain will go away. You posted this, that must mean that you are willing to seek help. Continue it! There are people that are willing to help you, professionals! I have always felt so fucking alone with my thoughts and problems, and been afraid to share them, if they think I’m crazy. But since I’ve done that I’ve gained not just understanding, but a little, little more peace inside. Like “they know WHY I’m like this, and it’s OK, they accept me for who I am.”
And another suggestion, write a letter to yourself, write why you are feeling like this. What you need and how can change your thoughts. I cried flods when I did it, but I read it every day, how I can be happier, little little things…
You are not alone <3
You sound smarter then most.
At times, with us, depression will convince us otherwise; but you get more then one opportunity in life. I’m certain of it. And i’m certain another will arise for you.
If you are anything like me, then the trite advice to ‘be patient’ is not what you have come to this forum in hope of. But it is true. I would bet my life for yours on it.