I can never get along with my mother, I tell her I wanna kill myself and that I cut myself. Ive tried so hard to kill myself but always have backed down. What’s stopping me? I love to cut. Makes me feel so much better. Why does it make me feel like this? I just want my mom to care. She used to tell me to kill myself. Idk what to do. Can anyone help me??!!
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I don’t think I can help you. I just wanted to say that I am so sorry your mom talked to you that way. It is so wrong. Is there someone else you can talk to? Like a close friend or therapist or something?
If you go to school than try to get in touch with a counselor or psychiatrist, anything. Your cutting is a sign of attention, like you said, and the pain is most likely sweet because it’s a distraction from other things in this world. And you don’t want to kill yourself. You want to escape, you want to live happily. Take the initiative, and instead of listening to your mother be such a cruel person take the initiative and contact the counseling at your school. Family counseling will work wonders for you.
Please seriously consider these options as opposed to other ;A;
I dont wanna tell any of my friends because they will tell and have my taken and put in a hospital. I dont want that. And a theripists would do the same thing. Thats why I came here.
Do u want to talk?
Yes ):
What everyone best understand on this forum is, you can not kill yourself, it goes against the natural order of the universe…if one succeeds in releasing themselves from their physical body, then that’s what you have done however you remain alive however transitioned into a different state with the same consciousness you left your body with. So will you actually feel or be better?
What’s most important is that you get along with yourself. Period. People that love you, love you unconditionally…that’s the highest order-unconditional love. Your very approach to yourself (cutting yourself and trying so hard is resistance you are creating keeping you from what you actually want). What we call death, is truly release and relief and you are acting opposite to what croaking actually is. So find some better feeling thoughts, that will allow YOU to feel better. Focus on that. You’re alive here for you, not your mom. Take care.
Your id name is interesting…I want you to care…If I were you, I’d change it to I want to care about me!
:/ true. I wish I could change it
Is there anyone else you can talk to offline? Relatives or your father perhaps?
Any of us would be willing to correspond with you but you may need more than emails and sms messaging can do.
You are living in an abusive situation.
I do understand not wanting to be committed but it will probably not be forever and maybe you will get some peace.