In my psychology class I learned that in order for ýour body to maintain homeostasis, it will need to experience the opposite emotion to keep the balance inside your body. I can’t help but think how wrong that is. For so long I’ve struggled and been so..down. Where is my happiness? When is my body going to make me happy? Am I the one to blame?
This sucks. It really does suck, but actually I’m almost more comfortable here than I am when I’m happy. To be so truly happy is rare, and when it does happen its almost uncomfortable. I used to often think about why it is so much eaiser to be sad, to be a failure, to focus on everything negative. I could never really find an answer to tell you the truth. The closest I got was that you never need to put an effort to be sad, a failure, or be negative. To be happy or successful is so much harder. To attain such a perfect, wonderful life is SO much harder. Why try to attain for such beauty that is hardly even a chance for me when I can simply give up? The truth is, I’m so tired and exhuasted from trying. I’m tired of the constant nit picking and nagging. I’m tired of the word “No” being the answer to everything. I’m tired of every fake person and every fake smile. For once in my life could I see something real. Can someone or something be a reason for my exisitance, please?
I’m tired of trying for something that isn’t even real.
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What would constitute the perfect life is open to debate as people want different thinks. Firstly identify what it is that you hope to achieve and then go about your business. I understand that I like eating ice cream, drinking beer and building model planes. Thus those things make me happy probably due to a rose in seretonin levels. But it’s not everyones cup of tea. If I were to get married and have a family of my own the sense of duty or purpose would be satisfying because most of the things that I would do would be for their benefit. Not that there would ever be a girl crazy enough to marry me. Your still a youngster so there is time to figure it out. I’m getting a bit old now and some of the things that I would have like to have done are slipping away. It does not matter if you don’t achieve all of the things you like. No one ever does. If there is someone out there with more then good for them. There are few people who are the complete package. Look at all these celebrities who end up having mental breakdowns. As long as your mind stays fairly sound you should be ok. At least you will then have the ability to understand what’s going on. You will be surprised that most of these happy people don’t.